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Alister McGrath’s C.S. Lewis– A LIfe: Part One

Ben Witherington - Bible and Culture - Sat, 05/02/2015 - 02:37
Alister McGrath has recently provided us with a top drawer biography of C.S. Lewis, which has as its subtitled ‘Eccentric Genius. Reluctant Prophet’ (Tyndale, 449 pages, about $18 U.S.). Unlike it’s notable predecessors (by George Sayer or Roger Lancelyn Green), McGrath did not know Lewis personally, and therefore presents us with more of an outsider’s [Read More...]

Movies and Films

Missionary Blogs - Fri, 05/01/2015 - 19:09
I don’t just watch movies, I study films. Like most people I like movies. Though since I was young was always watching good old classic films. From high school I attended film festivals, took a...

Living simply; living far away (Nepal)

Missionary Blogs - Fri, 05/01/2015 - 18:00
My mom recently sent me a book, "My Seventh Monsoon" by Naomi Reed, an Australian missionary to Nepal. I took the book along with me to a church retreat last weekend and read a few chapters while...

May 2015 Newsletter

Missionary Blogs - Fri, 05/01/2015 - 13:27
Greetings from Guatemala!  We have reached the hot season in our part of the world.  We have had many days in a row of 100+ degrees.  April and May are typically the hottest months...

The other end of answered prayer

Missionary Blogs - Fri, 05/01/2015 - 11:00
I periodically talk about answered prayer here. I certainly try to report on answered prayer when I write our monthly prayer/newsletter. But today, I'm thinking about earlier, the time when I don't...

March/April 2015 Not to us, O Lord, not to us, but to your name give glory, for the sake of your steadfast love and your faithfulness! Psalm 115:1

Missionary Blogs - Fri, 05/01/2015 - 08:40
March/April 2015                    Not to us, O Lord, not to us, but to your name give glory, for the sake of your steadfast love and your...

March/April 2015 Not to us, O Lord, not to us, but to your name give glory, for the sake of your steadfast love and your faithfulness! Psalm 115:1

Missionary Blogs - Fri, 05/01/2015 - 08:40
March/April 2015                    Not to us, O Lord, not to us, but to your name give glory, for the sake of your steadfast love and your...

May Ministry Update

Missionary Blogs - Fri, 05/01/2015 - 07:20
The water project in our community has been on-going and has ran into many delays. But through all of the delays we have had many opportunities to speak to the leaders we work with in the...

Chronological Snobbery

Ben Witherington - Bible and Culture - Fri, 05/01/2015 - 02:03
Chronological snobbery—it’s a fact A sin of mind and act. It relegates the past to the dustbin And it will not retract. It thinks the latest is the greatest, And the new is the true, No matter what naysayers Say or do. Chronological snobbery—it’s a crime. ‘dwell no more in the past it says, leave [Read More...]

For the Days When I Make Life More Complicated Than It Needs To Be.....

Missionary Blogs - Thu, 04/30/2015 - 21:20
Growing up, I was the kind of gal that wanted to completely understand the assignment before doing the work. I wanted the rules laid out, the theory understood, and a step-by-step approach given...

150 Hours

Behind The Child - Thu, 04/30/2015 - 19:32
I'm struggling to find words these days. It's safe to say I'm tired. This doesn't appear to be a problem for our political leaders and political wannabe leaders. I try to stay out of politics. I vote, but apart from that I mostly pray that our leaders will have wisdom, integrity and compassion, and thank God that I'm not called into leadership myself. But, despite my lack of ready words, I find I cannot stay silent.

The rhetoric these days is awful.

It's all about "hard working families." Don't get me wrong. I think to be a hard working family is an excellent thing. But, you see, I don't think that paid work out of the house is the only work worth anything.

Let me tell you about my day. But before I do, let me tell you that this isn't just my day; it's a day I share with many of my friends, both locally and further afield.

My day starts at 6AM, when I get up and give child one her morning medication. She's usually awake; I change her, clean her, reposition her, burp her through her feeding tube, check her breathing mask is in the right place, and then put the kettle on for the first of many coffees.

6.45AM and I need to start preparations for child two's bowel washout; step one is given in her bed.

More medications mixed, clothes flung on, because at 7AM the door usually opens, and our morning carer usually turns up. I say usually, because this isn't inevitable; sometimes they are off sick - and I won't be told until they are already 30 minutes late. Sometimes there has been a timetabling error and they have been sent somewhere else. Sometimes there are traffic issues. We miss, on average, one visit a week. But today, let's assume they are here.

I unhook child two from her ventilator, and get her sitting on the toilet. I give her the rest of her bowel washout. I give her her morning medications. The carer is unable to do these tasks; they are medical not caring. I make the carer a cup of tea so she can warm her hands on it and not shock child two when she touches her. The carer meanwhile strips the bed, because it always needs changing, and gathers new clothes. Hopefully we've got a good carer this morning, and they interpret "please strip the bed" to mean remove the sheets, wipe down the mattress, place sheets by the washing machine, find clean sheets and remake the bed. Otherwise I'll be gathering soggy sheets from the bedroom floor in an hour or so's time, and hoping to remember to remake the bed at some point before bedtime.

Overnight catheter is removed and binned. Oral medication given.

I make breakfast, morning carer cajoles child two into clothes, waits for washout to work, then hoists child onto the bench, gets her cleaned up, and hopefully shouts for me to come and give the next round of medications before hoisting into wheelchair. Then it's hair, teeth, splints and shoes, bookbag and WILL YOU DRINK THAT DRINK and catheter before the bus is here, a quick kiss and a hug and an I love you, and she is off to school.

Child 1, you will note, is still in bed. Because child 1 is, to use Mr Cameron's own words, "desperately disabled." Desperately disabled in this case meaning too fragile to cope with school; the atmosphere in the classroom causes her to have difficulty breathing.

I finish coffee number two, and clear up. Foul bedding into the washing machine, then deep breath and into the bathroom to scrub the walls and floor where washout under pressure has had a certain pebble dashing effect. Scrub hands, then finish getting myself vaguely presentable and ready for the day.

And now child 1 is stirring, or is she having a seizure? Possibly both; she generally fits on waking. So I comfort her through her seizure; it's a good one, less than 30 minutes long so no need to intervene. Mental note that the neurologist's secretary has not been in touch, it's been a week, I add her to my list of calls for the morning.

Seizure over, I give a nebuliser. This is harder than it should be, because respite broke the very last of the valved T-pieces which we need to use to deliver a neb through her CPAP machine. They broke the two before that as well, despite knowing these were not being made any more and that we would not be able to get a replacement. So now we wait in the hope that a different design will be available and suitable, otherwise next time she has a chest infection, we will have to break the ventilator circuit to insert the nebuliser port, and hope this doesn't put her into too much respiratory distress. I'm quite annoyed with respite, can you tell?

It's now 10 o'clock, and child one hasn't had breakfast yet. Cereal, fruit smoothie and milk through her gastrostomy tube, then time to switch the CPAP off and hope she can breathe for herself. It's a good day; she manages the transition to room air with only a few minutes of gasping and snorting.

Stiff limbs need physiotherapy; because she's not in school any more she now only sees a physiotherapist once every six weeks in term time - six times a year, effectively. And a physio assistant once every six weeks, plus a few extra mercy visits after botox - for six weeks after we have injected poison into her arms to try to reduce the spasticity. Today is not a physio day, so that's down to me. Up and down, up and down, arms and legs, but gently with the hand which is still so inexplicably sore, despite paracetamol and ibuprofen and morphine. Stiff limbs manipulated into loose clothing, a body bent double after a night stretched out, working every muscle until the body becomes vaguely chairshaped. Into the chair, and smiles for mouthwash, eye cleaning, neck loosening, and gentle, gentle brushing of hair, wondering always just exactly what the loose roll of skin at the back of her head might be.

It's 11 o'clock, and we are both actually dressed and could leave the house if we needed to. Except of course that we can't; I need to phone the neurologist again and try to get some answers as to why seizures which have always always distorted her body in one direction are now twisting it the other way. But before I do that, I need to phone the surgery and order more meds, and before I do that, I need to phone the pharmacy and chase the drugs we ordered last week, as I cannot now remember which meds I ordered and which I did not.

I phone the pharmacy, and they promise they will deliver the drugs we did order last week. Good, because we now have only half a dose of one of them left. The pharmacist hangs up before I can check exactly what's on the list of drugs to be delivered, and now it is too late to phone the GP until after lunch.

A drink for both of us then, mine orally and child 1's through her tube. Feed the cats and fish, put the washing into the drier and the next load into the machine, and now it's lunch time. Egg and cheese and salad for child 1, pureed and pushed through her tube. Side order of paracetamol at 12.

Child 1 has now been sitting up for 2 hours; she needs to get out of her chair, have a change (more laundry) and a stretch.

2PM and it's ibuprofen time; is there enough lunch left in her stomach, or do I need to find a banana to mash? It's OK, the cheese has hung around. But now it's suppository time, and that means 40 minutes sitting on a special mesh toilet seat, followed by a nice warm shower. Oh, except that 2 PM on a Thursday also means it's teaching time; a TA from school comes out for one hour twice a week to do something educational. This week they are doing some ribbon embroidery together.

3PM and child 2 arrives home from school on her bus, tired and cross and hungry. I am for once organised; there's an egg mayo sandwich and some cucumber ready sliced and waiting for her on her table, she will be far more human once she's eaten. And had her medication.

Child 1 needs to go back to bed, and wants to lie in the dark listening to hymns. Child 2 needs just the right amount of casual attention; it is a tricky time this period after school and before bed. Too much attention and it is perceived as demands, and rejected. Too little, and the assumption is she is unloved, and rejected. There will be a temper tantrum. There always is. There may be laughter. On a good day, there is.

And so it is 4 o'clock, and 5 o'clock, and I need to make tea for child 1, and feed her, and change her, and jolly her on until she can have her medications at 6 o'clock. And then she relaxes, and the little twitches stop dancing across her face, and her arm is loose, and she is comfortable again.

And it is 7 o'clock, and I must mix up evening meds for child 2, and start her countdown til bedtime. Too soon, and she will melt down because the countdown will be too long. Too late, and she will melt down because there won't be time to have a proper countdown. Later still, and I will melt down because it is too close to my own bedtime.

And so at 19:30 precisely, child 2 will trundle her chair into her bedroom, and we will do the clothes off, PJs sometimes on, nighttime meds and procedures carried out, ventilator hooked up, clean water in a water bottle tucked into just the right fold of the sheet, long pillow tucked in just so, short pillow pushed in just exactly so, duvet adjusted for maximum cat proofing, door wedged at just exactly the right angle, hall light on, kitchen light most definitely off, wheelchair on charge, goodnight and I love you.

8 o'clock and I must hook child 1 back up to her CPAP and give her the evening neb I forgot to give earlier. She's had a great day. No suction, no emergency nebs, no extra pain relief. Oh, but she did need emergency diazepam for seizures at 4.30, forgot that bit. And finally I can sit for a bit. I'm tired, but I need to wait until 10 to give the final dose of ibuprofen, and then midnight for the last dose of paracetamol. I've just given a dose of chloral hydrate, because she's not asleep yet, just lying in bed staring at the ceiling and twitching gently.

I'm typing this at 11PM; I would ordinarily go to bed after ibuprofen o'clock, but child 2 needed turning, there's another load of washing in the machine, and Mr Cameron's comments about "hard working families" struck a bit of a nerve.

Because you see I think we're a pretty hard working family ourselves. And I think this day I have is shared by many many others locally and further afield. And I find it utterly sickening that only paid work, "proper" work is valued. Friends lives were made so much harder during this parliament thanks to the removal of child benefit from women whose husbands earned over a certain amount of money. And now I hear suggestions that the Conservatives propose to remove Carer's Allowance from Carers who don't receive Universal Credit.

Let me tell you about Carer's Allowance. Carer's Allowance is one of the lowest paid means-tested Allowances out there. It's paid to people who have caring responsibilities for more than 35 hours a week, provided they don't earn more than £110 a week in paid work. It's around £65 a week; something over £3000 a year. It's taxable. For hundreds of people, mostly women, it's just barely enough to enable them to stay at home and keep their loved one - parent, partner, child- at home too. It's money in the pockets of those women who save the country a fortune by keeping their disabled family members out of care homes and hospitals. It's little enough. To a millionaire, I suspect it's loose change, which is maybe why it's not deemed worthy of protection. But to those of us who claim it, it's the electricity bill, the replacement drier, the takeaway meal when it gets to 8PM and you haven't left the house all day and haven't actually left the house all week, and have only just managed to sit down just now, and only now because you've forgotten half the things you needed to do. Including calling the neurologist and the GP.

I'm lucky. I'll be alright. At least I hope I will - no one's suggesting losing adoption allowances just yet, although I do know there are no guarantees. But I know an awful lot of women who won't be.

I'm lucky in another way too. I get 18 hours a week of respite. Three days a week, a team of two staff - one nurse and a carer, or two nurses - turn up, and take over with child 1 for me for six hours. So that only leaves 150 hours for me to cover. Sometimes in the holidays, a third member of staff turns up so I can leave child 2 with them too. Which means that for 150 hours a week, I am doing the work of 2 or 3 members of staff. And now, in order to be a proper "hard working family" I should go out and work elsewhere too?

My day isn't finished yet, and I am pretty sure that I could phone at least six people on my contact list and find them still sitting up watching twitchy children, waiting to give meds, holding out for the end of a pumped tube feed, knowing that they need to turn their child in just another minute or so. I need to give paracetamol at midnight, and do a final reposition, turning an aching hand over to try to give some relief, aspirating a feeding tube to suck out the air my daughter cannot burp, and smooth away the wrinkles which will insist on gathering underneath her.

And then bed, and sleep, keeping an ear out for the alarms which indicate a broken connection in a breathing circuit, or dropping sats needing suction or repositioning. In the time I've written this, I've been up to tweak pillows and adjust access to water bottles, give the fourth dose of antibiotic, and silence an alarm from a humidifier that has run out of water. I'll be up again at some point between 2 and 4 to turn child 2, before tomorrow begins officially with the meds I need to give at 6AM.

When exactly should I join the ranks of the hard working, and who exactly would want to employ a woman who hasn't had a full night's sleep since 2002, and who would need more hours a week in parental leave than she'd be able to work anyway? And if he didn't mean people like me, and does in fact mean to protect those of us who care for our own "desperately disabled" children, why does it actually feel as though we are being got at?

Tia

Lest We Forget

Missionary Blogs - Thu, 04/30/2015 - 18:56
We attended the ANZAC Day dawn service here in Dili on Saturday.  This was a special occasion of the 100th anniversary of Australian and New Zealand troops landing at Gallipoli, Turkey, in World...

The Latest With Mibu Ministry

Missionary Blogs - Thu, 04/30/2015 - 15:52
We wanted to start by saying a huge thanks to all of you who are a part of the Mibu Ministry through your time in prayer and your regular monthly finances. We're certainly not here in Mibu on our...

The “Oh, It’s Easy” Lie

Missionary Blogs - Thu, 04/30/2015 - 13:14
I lied last week. A friend asked how I could pack my life into a single suitcase and move across the country. My response was something like, “Oh, it’s easy. It’s not like I have to...

Titles or names

Missionary Blogs - Thu, 04/30/2015 - 12:00
In early 2009, Dayle and I were traveling into Congo. Our first stop was at the Shalom University of Bunia. When we arrived at the Bunia airport, we found that the university had sent a driver for...

Mixing up role and identity

Missionary Blogs - Thu, 04/30/2015 - 08:14
I wonder if being too attached to our roles  means it's hard to temporarily hang up those hats and take a break, or a holiday? It is so easy to get role and identity mixed up. All those...

Lame Duck

Missionary Blogs - Thu, 04/30/2015 - 06:10
It’s a weird thing, being the lame duck. Maybe that’s putting things a little strong, but I first noticed it a couple of weeks ago. We were enjoying dinner together with the church, like we do every...

How to Transfer Your VHS Tapes to DVDs in 25 Easy Steps!

Missionary Blogs - Thu, 04/30/2015 - 06:00
Cleaning tapes and VCRs--my favourite! ;) Do you have a collection of bulky VHS tapes taking up room? Do you even use your VCR anymore? Are your tapes growing mold and your precious memories and...

Woman in Gold–Helen Mirren Shines Brightly

Ben Witherington - Bible and Culture - Thu, 04/30/2015 - 02:07
Last summer Ann and I went to Austria so I could give a lecture at the International SBL meeting. It was mostly just an excuse to go see a beautiful European city and see some friends there and in Prague. Everywhere we went, we saw trinkets, pictures, posters, of the art work of Gustav Klimt [Read More...]

Some inside knowledge on disaster recovery in Nepal

Missionary Blogs - Wed, 04/29/2015 - 04:41
Here are some thoughts on the disaster in Nepal from the man (a missionary in Japan) who led a large relief and recovery organisation in Japan's disaster four years ago: Some thoughts on the Nepal...
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